Wednesday, September 30, 2009

Post Divorce Month No.1

My first month post divorce nad the shit has really hit the fan. My two older daughters are having difficulty adjusting and my youngest daughter is adjusting slowly but surely but just fine. My girlfriend loves me, she must because she perceives herself as a punching bag. She really has bitten off the big one with me.
I knew is was going to be like this, just didn't know how bad. Things were actually better when I was just separated. Anyway, one day at a time and a lot of prayer. Now if I can just get some exercise and drop 20-30lbs, I'll be happy.
My situation sucks big time. I'm broke, but not broken. Am not losing weight and am not getting any real exercise either. I did quit smoking though, that's the good news. I'm sure my daughters love me, they're just going through their own shit.
My now ex-wife is being a royal bitch and she looks awful. She's not taking care of herself or my house. She's not working a real job or taking care of the girls. I don't know what to do. Am battle weary but when it comes to my girls, I wish they would move in with me. It's almost as if i still have to do everything and I'm not even living there. god help me, I'm in a world of shit.